Merry Christmas and a Happy Anniversary

It was a festive spirit that embodied my being aw we celebrate the joyful Christmas and our anniversary. Unlike last year, I completed the 9 misas de gallo, but now we only attended on the 9th morning. The theme centered on the beacon of light brought by the birth of our Savior. Emmanuel. The homily was meaningfully expressed by the presider centering on our inner peace seeking for the light. For the record, it did not put me into sleep the fact that it was early morning. Instead, it established a trance that supported my faith to experience the inner peace once more. As the light portrays its magnificence in the pangs of darkness and sorrow, I decided and hoped to think outside the box and capture the deepest blessings that I am enjoying-grace. The words that healed my past, strengthened my will power and uplifted my soul have molded me to be strong in life. Grace indeed summarized my limited faculty and the incomprehensibility of the Father. The pride, diligence and hard work that have enthroned my self into the selfish side of the world have been outshone by the immense and immeasurable grace that/Who touched my heart.

This Christmas is an inevitable realization that within me, is also an access to the Light and to the Prince of Peace. With this grace, it ignited my inner peace to see the shining light and recognize my blessings.

The challenging and fruitful experiences we shared make this "remembering season" remarkable but the time we shared and moments we spent with Him this season make it special. Very special.

:)

i just don't want to be lonely

I don't mind when you say that you're going away
I just don't wanna be lonely,
And I don't care if you share only moments a day,
I just don't wanna be lonely,


I'd rather be loved and needed; depended
on to give a love I can't give

When you're gone, when you're gone, I just
don't want to be lonely. I'd
just rather be loved.

I don't mind when the time sets the sun to the moon,
I just don't wanna be lonely,
Let the stairs find you there, at the end of the room,
I just don't wanna be lonely,

The first line highlights the flickering ego of persona. He doesn’t care about his partner leaving because he just doesn’t want to be lonely. Immature as it may seems but this reminds me of a topic which was discussed by “Paul & Chery” in a radio program - W rock: (note: not really the exact words..but same thought)

Paul – Ang problema sa inyo mga babae , you always expect from us men things that are humanly impossible- always texting kahit may ginagawa, always keeping in touch, saying “I love you” always, ..bla-bla..
(Cherry interrupts: Paul, saying I love you is the least you could do..)
Paul (continues) – and the time you want to stop the relationship, you want to go away, you expect us to be vocal at gustong marining ang mga katagang: please don’t go, I need you, ..I don’t want this to end, I love you, I need you (again)..bla, bla….just to feel how important you are. Kailangan pa bang magpakaawa para paniwalaan?
Cherry: Xempre, gusto naming malaman kung gaano pa kami kaimportante..
Paul: eh, di nga lahat kami kayang banggitin ang mga katagang iyon..not all men are vocal.


Secluding the feeling of loneliness from other vibrant feelings within us is somehow difficult. It depends on the emotional capability of individual to handle feelings of insecurity and depression. We would definitely seek comfort and emptiness of negative thoughts to vent out these clutters.

Most often, we underestimate the power to speak out. We have been preoccupied by some opinions of others. The beauty of expression lies also in the splendid moment of saying the words like, “I just don’t wanna be lonely.”

Speaking out your feelings is a common thing that most likely would achieve uncommon results especially in a relationship. We ask it by saying it and then acknowledge when we feel it. Selfish as it may sound, the “just don’t wanna be lonely” thing, can be supplied by an unselfish act of love which straightens the crooked way of bare romance.

As others would say, that happiness is subjective, I would also say that it is also a choice. The loneliness we get rid off, doesn’t always have to be tied with the limited love that the other party could or could not give. But the power of words comes into play if we use it effectively in communicating and expressing our feelings.

one shot

A time to play for a child is precious. It builds the force and strength within oneself not only physically but also emotionally. Be it in town or in the urban setting, the mind of a child is very free to imagine the things that he/she wants to be.

This picture shows the early form of art that is being unleashed by a child. With one's creativity and curiosity, the dream to play and to enjoy has actually been materialized.

Simple as it may seem, but this basketball ring unfolds some potential character of a child that would bring him/her towards the track of vision and keeping an eye to that vision.

Imago dei

Too many times, I encountered this evil nature within me. I know that, within this being it strongly casts the emotions that promote personal insecurity, fear and deception. Our old sinful nature which is Satan’s access, somehow, tempts us to cling on to what we call “human nature”. The weaknesses inside has become my stumbling block in every relationship I have.
Often times, I base my security on the opinion and acceptance of others. When I feel rejected and unloved, I become insecure and perceive the strengths of other people as threats to my own well being.
Sometimes, I tend to cultivate insecurity and jealousy by constantly perceiving a threat that in reality does not exist. Due to the lies I believe about others and myself, my perception towards life is distorted.

I know that I have to turn to God through His Word to remind me once again of His unfailing love and acceptance. Through prayer, reflection and active engagement with Him , I will be able to uplift myself as a being in His own image and likeness. Imago dei.

My 31st visit

Finally, I came to a standpoint where I exhaled my last breath of doubt. It was a tough thing for me to enter the dragon and meet the parents. The seemingly 50 first dates and forbidden kingdom have made me realize that amidst those long wanderings in the mountain of Black Forest, all of them were part of the long way to their highness. Indeed, it was a tough battle within and outside forces that it took me weeks to formulate the concrete decision and how to modify the traditional ways of visiting my one and only.

The traditional ways have been toppled by surprises and magnificence of proper timing. The simplicity of gift that was accompanied by angelic greetings that fit the simple ambience of close family ties. The unexpected friendliness and positive aura I have encountered inhibited my suspicious and negative mind.

Within my soul, and beneath my courage, I know that there’s this blissful state tells me to be more patient and humble in taking this path called love.

Linking Subject matters

In my attempt to prepare my report about conflict management, I came across with different matters concerning Organizational management. Going beyond the bird's eye view of conflict, I encountered the five types of interaction in dealing conflict in workplace. The importance of the interaction to goal attainment and the degree of goal compatibility are the key factors in assessing the situation. Conflict between people acting as individuals and people acting as representatives of groups can be analyzed in terms of relationship among the goals they represent. Reactions to conflict are avoidance, accommodation, compromise, competition and collaboration. Mentioning about collaboration, this is one of the pillars that is being discussed in my research study.
Because of the subtopic about collaboration, i have extended my vision on how to create my research design. It was stated that collaboration occurs when the interaction between groups is very important to goal attainment and the goals that each level in an organization represents are compatible. Collaborative relationships can lead to new and innovative ideas and solutions if properly aligned with International Standards that the company implements. I am optimistic that my research proposal is measurable and realistic since it focus on the impact of Quality Management System to the levels of organization.

At start! Graduate!

..w/ my mother and sister

Graduate at last. But this is not the last, this certainly is the beginning. I want to achieve more and study again.

My inner desire to study has been motivating me to be on the right track. I've enrolled to Graduate School, taking up MBA. Since, we have no work during Saturdays, it is an opportune time for me to shape my dream. I have little regret of not starting it earlier. I may be working on my thesis this time. Nonetheless, my work experience will be one of my recipe in dealing the subject matter in a wider speck.